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MY BABY'S 9-TEEN BIRTHDAY!

2012-01-24T07:16:00.001-08:00

21st January i celebrated baby's birthday and i surprised him at FISH & CO (glasshouse) haha. OH WAIT! MY BABY HAS TURNED 19 ALREADY! hahaha. SOON ITS GOING TO BE MY TURN! sooooooooooooo, end of story! actually i'm kinda lazy to type so long! so yeah~ picture tells everything. BYEEE

2012-01-13T06:50:00.000-08:00

So, it has been MONTHS and MONTHS and MONTHS huh since i last update? awesome much. So whats happening now? Hmm, someone's birthday is coming soon! AND ALSO HE'S GONNA BE 9-TEEN! kinda old though! hehe. so currently, i'm planning pretty well for his birthday DAY! Hopefully he's gonna like it? soooooooooo, will be meeting my leha tomorrow to help me with something~

life so far

2011-09-24T07:08:00.000-07:00

How i wish i could share my love story with my parents? That would be so much great and lovely! But parents are not that supportive at all. I can see mama really love to hear kakak love story with her bf. Happy for kakak though. But deep inside me, i envy kakak. Really. Mama, she never asked anything about my life story. Never at all. She never asked anything about my relationship~ When was the last time i get any attention from my parents? Seriously, idk. All they care whenever i'm out, they want me to get home ASAP. All they care was "get home early". Yeah, that's my parents. To them, i don't have a life story at all. Its ok mama, ayah. Just don't care and know nothing about my life story ok.

RAYA AT MY HOUSE!

2011-09-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

2011-08-31T07:49:00.000-07:00

Soon its going to be the 5th month of school. Wows. & in 6 days time i'm gonna have my exams. 3 EXAMS. Pasty Basics, Baking science and Cake mixing. I know i'm gonna study it soon! Insya'allah i can! i want this course badly and so whatever happens i'm not going to give up! Even if its hard for me to understand i'll put in effort! i want people to believe what i've said! ok, whatever to everything. i shall of my lappy because its fucking hot already! SHEEESH!

RAYA 2011

2011-08-31T03:39:00.001-07:00

2011-08-05T07:50:00.000-07:00

how in the world did kakak managed her relationship for almost 7 years? *sigh* i really find myself useless. Maybe i'm not able to make it for this relationship. Even my partner wanted to give up on me most of the time. do i deserve him? haiz. i wish i could talk about this with mama. but she's just not an open-minded person ): i wanna talk to somebody which will give me POSITIVE advice. I need abang fir! ): Because there's A LOT more that i'm not sure about and i'm sure abang will give me some good advice.

specially for my sick boyfriend(:

2011-07-20T07:58:00.001-07:00

Dear Sayang,

Since your sick now, baby must really really Take care of yourself tau! I'm worried for you like seriously ~_~ i don't get to be by your side ): Sayang, make sure if your still sick tomorrow, you really have to eat medicine. No more excused ok? And also, bring along your vicks and your bottle to school because NO COLD DRINKS FOR YOU! If there's anything, make sure give me a call ok? Take care sweety! I REALLY MISS YOU ALOT! ): Tomorrow tak jums seh.... i hate my new timetable. its LIKE A SHITASSHOLE! see you on friday then...?

i love you i miss you i sayang you! MUACKZZZZZ!

I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS YOU ALOT! ):

I love danialz! heh

2011-07-20T05:01:00.001-07:00

Today is such a wonderful day as i don't show my perangai skills to dan! HEHE! Starting from today, i really really die die have to treasure our moments together since we don't always get to be with each other most of the time. Each and everyday he will always be busy with school stuffs. and now, there's new project for him SOON more to come. More time for his project lesser time for me. BORING. I had really enough of arguments about the same thing. So i shall not repeat the same thing again~ I miss danial really very much! although we studied in the same school, our timetables are soooooo NOT the same. sheesh! i miss danial. i miss danial!!! ):

12 more days to Puase. wows. Btw the pictures above is my first strawberry shortcake!^^

WHAT A DAY!

2011-07-15T07:31:00.000-07:00

EH BINGIT SEH DGN SEMUE ORANG! USING BILL IS NOT COOL! SUCKS LIKE CHIBAI! IN THE FIRST PLACE WHY DO THEY TAKE SUCH PLANS FOR THE PHONE? NOTHING IS FREE EXCEPT FOR THE INCOMING CALLS! AYAH BLAME ME, MAMA BLAME ME! AH LATER KAKAK COME HOME SHE WILL ALSO BLAME ME! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!! SEMUE ORANG INGAT AKU SENGAJE NAK PAKAI BILL! PADEHAL PREPAID SIMCARD THAT I'VE BEEN USING FOR 6 YEARS DA ROSAK! SUSAH SANGAT NAK PAHAM AKU?! HAIZ. TAK PAYAH ADE HP LAGI SENANG! BAHAGIA SEMUE ORANG! GETTING READY TO BE SCOLDED BY KAKAK WHEN SHE GET BACK LATER~

haiz, gi school both of my cake tak menjadi! balik rumah kene marah pasal bill! WHAT'S NEXT HUH?!

FML

i'm having depressive illness

2011-07-07T07:41:00.001-07:00

Are you depressed?

If you identify with several of the following signs and symptoms, and they just won’t go away, you may be suffering from clinical depression.

you can’t sleep or you sleep too much
you can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult
you feel hopeless and helpless
you can’t control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try
you have lost your appetite or you can’t stop eating
you are much more irritable and short-tempered than usual

Common signs and symptoms of depression

Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation.
Loss of interest in daily activities. No interest in former hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex. You’ve lost your ability to feel joy and pleasure.
Appetite or weight changes. Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month.
Sleep changes. Either insomnia, especially waking in the early hours of the morning, or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia).
Irritability or restlessness. Feeling agitated, restless, or on edge. Your tolerance level is low; everything and everyone gets on your nerves.
Loss of energy. Feeling fatigued, sluggish, and physically drained. Your whole body may feel heavy, and even small tasks are exhausting or take longer to complete.
Self-loathing. Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. You harshly criticize yourself for perceived faults and mistakes.
Concentration problems. Trouble focusing, making decisions, or remembering things.
Unexplained aches and pains. An increase in physical complaints such as headaches, back pain, aching muscles, and stomach pain.

I don't think anybody knows that i'm suffering all of these. Not even my family, friends or boyfriend. All of them thought i was being lazy and always joke around with my headaches. None of them believe me. Even now i'm having bad headache and idk what to do with it. People just don't wanna believe or trust me when i'm in awfully pain. All they say was, stop being like this or even are you trying to avoid anything that's why ur like this? You know what? I'm just speechless. Maybe they want something to happen to me then they wanna believe me?

http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/diseases/depression/symptomsofdepression_000603.htm

without you?

2011-07-06T07:58:00.000-07:00

this is my TUESDAY! spend my whole afternoon with this irritating GIRL! whatever it is, i really thank her for coming to the north just to make me happy and fulfilled my "wants" which is to go to the waterpark! You made my day girl. Thank you (: Next will be your turn huh? i bet you wanna go karaoke! haha.

YOU

2011-06-27T08:58:00.000-07:00

i'm just SO pissed with you. I think this is the 2nd time i've ever PISSED OFF WITH YOU. YOU ARE JUST SO SICKENING! i almost cried because of you during the day time. I tau u busy dengan all kinds of activities you had today. But i never thought you would put me aside and carried on with whatever you do. Sorry to say this BUT your so CRUEL today. You know what? I hate YOU today. FUCK your phone really. Or if not campak je your phone kat mane2! That would be much better. I tak tau u buat ape and dengan sape sampai you totally lupekan i? You know? Sadly, i don't feel your existence anymore. & i thought you should know your limits with your friends? ah fuck that la. MALAS nak cakap. You know everything and just do whatever you wanna do ok? And OHYA, from today onwards you can just put me aside and ENJOY. I'm no more an "important girlfriend"

H-E-A-R-T-IS-B-R-E-A-K

thanks a lot

my crazy leha.

2011-06-23T08:58:00.000-07:00

it has been 1 month plus when i last met her. & that sucks a lot. It sucks when we're staying fucking far. There are disadvantages and advantage to have a house here.

Disadvantages are: All of my closed friends are staying in the east and same goes to my families. It totally sucks when you really need to be with ur favourite girlfriend & she's too far to be with you. And you can only communicate through your phone.

Advantages: I stayed near danial and we can just meet anytime depends on my parents lor. Sometimes danial can sent me home easily compared sending me to simei. My school is near to my hometown and i like that a lot.

Ahhhhhh, macam rimas gile sia duduk rumah and do totally nothing. Nak keluar BUT they won't let me out everytime. ABEH nak buat ape? Nak keje but i'm always having problems with my health -_- BORING. faster la finish this holiday?! i wanna go school! I HAVE NO LIFE BY STAYING AT HOME. ASSSSSSSS. I WISH IFFAH WAS HERE. I WISH DANIAL WAS HERE. I WISH SALEHA WAS HERE. SIGH. BIG WISH LA YOU.

Spend my saturday with these two! HAHA

2011-06-19T09:16:00.000-07:00

lovely friday!

2011-06-19T07:57:00.000-07:00

BARNEY DAY WITH LOVE^^

2011-06-13T00:53:00.000-07:00

Ok, now my laptop is being so stubborn that i can't even upload the rest of the pictures~ SOOOO, let me update something about my life right now. Everything is fine but im just having some problems with my theory test. Well thats school life right? Just TAHAN AND WAYANG.

Currently me and danial are just doing great. Sometimes..i don't know how to put it in words but i certainly know what's in my mind. I'm having problems to express my thoughts and feelings. There's always "i'm scared" in me. I'm always the one who will get scolded for doing the wrong things and get blamed. I know most of the time i just do something stupid and i just don't know why must i do that stupid thing. Sometimes, you even made me scared of you. Making me scared of you doesn't really make things right. You think that's the only way to make me respond you? Do you know that the more you shout the more your making me scared of you? At that moment i don't feel your my boyfriend or my anything. Just nothing. I feel like running away from it but i just don't have the guts to do so. I'm scared that i'm just going to let the matter worse. But staying longer time with you made me Again scared of you and cry so much. Frankly, i know i'm always the caused of our arguments. Like i said sometimes things i did i just have no reasons for it. I agree this relationship is killing you most of the time. You always said that i don't spare a thought for you, i don't care for your feelings but you don't know whats in my heart. Being me is hard. I always followed my emotions without my notice. I would always wanna keep your heart save from anything hurtful but in the end, i'll just keep on hurting you. Sigh ): I just hated to be me danial.

LOVE YOU

2011-05-14T09:59:00.000-07:00

i did lots of laughing with danial today! I'M REALLY DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH DANIAL! & todaay finally i got my BURGER KING! thanks to him because i gotta travel from woodlands to clark quay. WOW. what a JOURNEY! ok whatever. TODAY I MET MY LEHA! OMG!!! DIDN'T EXPECT TO MEET HER TODAY! I WAS FREAKING HAPPY WHEN I SEE HER SMILING AT ME!!!! heee~ i just missed her like fucking hell. You know what? I told danial that i wanna named my future daughter Ayuni Batrisya. BUT!!!!!! there are 2 girls named Ayuni and the other girl is Batrisya. They both are danial's FRIENDS. which i don't really uhhhhh like them? PFFT. & because of them, i have to change my future daughter's name -.- THANKS AH DANIAL~ lols.

I know you apologised but still...

2011-05-05T08:47:00.000-07:00

MY HEART BROKE INTO PIECES~

I need you the most, danial.

2011-04-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

i'm typing because, i can express better than saying anything from my mouth. I don't know why but i just can't tell what the hell is wrong with me. Its about relationship. I think its because of school~ Few days after school started, I always feel that you don't need me in school because you have your own friends and i'm just not important anymore. i'm not being ridiculous here. But that's how i feel~ Whenever i'm going to school on that day, i'm always on the *excited* mode because i know i'm going to meet you. But the sucky thing is that we are always running on time. Ohman, i hate that part. And also, when its going to be the end of the day i would always walked faster just to meet you and tell you everything about my lesson.

I'm always excited whenever i meet you. But you don't seem to be excited at all. Its like, "ahhhhhhh, ok here she come" Sometimes, i'm the only one who's always excited about everything but not you. Whenever i see you, all of my worries of everything in school just stops there. And i really felt relieved when you are actually there waiting for me. I know your school hours are tiring. But in one week, 5 days we're schooling and the other 2 days are for family~ And gradually, our time are only going to be during those breaks. I'm not being greedy because i wanna be with you but because of YOU&ME are still in together. If your always tired, then i idk. You have you own brains to think. Will see in a month time. Meanwhile, nabilah stay positive. Oh wait? I am always have a positive mind but only theres some problem my emotions. It just can't be helped at all. Only you can help me~

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! ):

I MISS YOU SO MUCH TOO! ): *heartbroken*

I don't want us to be in the 6/7th stage. 5th stage is already bad enough ): i hope it will be back in stage 1 to 3 just like the old days...

he says, i'm a drunk cyclist

2011-04-06T07:07:00.000-07:00

Today, i went out from house at 1.15 pm. Actually, i don't exactly know whats the plan for today. Standard ah. Last minute plan~ so i thought of playing rollerblading but decided to change plan and rode a bicycle instead. Sooooo, arnd 2 pm, i reached danial house to take his extra bike and tompang his lil sis behind me. At first she enjoyed the ride. But as time goes, i dont think she enjoyed the ride anymore because i started to slow down because i'm not used to cycle LONG distance~ And after i slowed down, i tried to ride as fast as i could but failed. I don't know why but, i'm having headache while cycling~ I fight for my headache but, it doesn't last long. Half way through, i asked danial to stop and i drank water and relax for a while. After few minutes, i cycled back and i'm still having the headache. When we were to cross the traffic light, i suddenly can't stand my headaches anymore and i feel like puking and faint. I asked danial to hold my bike while i sat down near the traffic light. i think peoples are starring at us curiously. haha! sooooo after 5 mins we sat down, we started to cycle to the yishun water park and after that, we ENJOY WITH THE WATER.

THE END.

sorry b, of what happened today. Today would be the first and the last time. There won't be a next time. Its too dangerous. I don't want anything bad to happened to baeisely~ I'm sorry. forgive me? ~_~

Your cute. But I'm Cuter. heeeeee

2011-04-01T09:45:00.000-07:00

Lols b. i found this picture at ur moms fb. HEHE. ok, so today i met danial at his bus-stop around 3 plus? So after that we went to his mother house as today she will be going to Belgium. & so at 4, we went off from his moms place and 4 of us (me, dan, cadell and his mom) waited for taxi to T3. HAHA. anyways, I took severals of danial's picture! & Its in his phone~ Action only! bawak luggage like as if he's the one who's going! MACAM PAHAM SEH! I think, i'm gonna ask him to sent the pics to me soon~ If he were to go uh, i think i'll be crying like hell or even ENJOY my life without his presence. hehe. DANIAL, I SWEAR I'M JOKING. How siaaaa to enjoy life without him? IDK. Soooooo, at 6 she gave us the last gdbye and there she go~ May you go & come back safely aunty! (;

I do have a dream

2011-03-31T07:47:00.000-07:00

I may be a snail mama. But, this time I REALLY WANNA SUCCEED like everybody else. I wanna be like kakak! She has a strong spirit! I don't want anybody to look down at me ANYMORE mama. I don't wanna be a big loser. I don't wanna be the last anymore! Mama kept asking me whether taking diploma or going into poly is the best choice? I know, in your eyes i'm nothing. I have no future. But, now i really wanna put my mind in studies! Do you know mama? To be a successful Chef in P&B is my dream. I would do anything to be one of that. Now that i realized that, i actually had a Big dream. I don't wanna waste any of my time ANYMORE. Mama, i had never showed you good results before. But this time, Insya'Allah i'll show you my best results! I really don't wanna disappoint kakak! She's my true cheerleader! Kakak, i'll show you my best results! I want you to be the first person to know it! (; Go for it ilah!! You know i'm always here with you! Help yourself ok? Don't be a lazy bum anymore! Insya'Allah you'll get what you want if you really GO FOR IT! yeaaaah! Encouragement for myself!(: Do your best in everything ok NABILAH?(: Mama, i'll go poly in future!

Ya Allah, tolonglah kuat kan semangat ilah kali ini? kau tolonglah aku dalam hidupku. Aku tahu, yang aku hanya mampu untuk merancang dan hanya engkau sahajalah boleh membuat keputusan. Amin

Do you miss me?

2011-03-29T05:57:00.000-07:00

UNFORGETTABLE RIDE. HEH

2011-03-27T01:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday really awaits! meet my LEHA was all i need~ haha. there's too much things that i don't know ~_~ yet i called myself bestfriend. haiyo~ knowing you are crying all by yourself because of the fatass! haizzzzz. *sakit hati* YESTERDAY sally BELANJE me popeyes chicken at t3! WOOTS! Thanks BABE! I LOVE YAW! after we finish eating, we talk and talk and talk. and after that we went to simei and watched anugerah~ 1 hour siaaaaaa diri! PENAT! after that, we chat for awhile and i went off. When i say bye to her, she cried ): poor her ): i asked her why nangis? don't cry la? i'm going already nieeeee?! she say, nothing. mane ade nangis? after asking her, i gave her a big hug and 2 kisses at her cheek~ aku sayang kau tauuuu! EVEN IF THAT FATASS IS NOT THERE FOR YOU, I'M ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU AND AKU SAYANG KAU GILER TAU! INGAT! Anything call me & message me! See you soon leha! i'll do my very best to cheer you up with those laughters (:

Met up last minute with my danial at his mummy's house. Reached his house exacly at 10. fuyoooooo. Mama,ayah went out so HEHE i took that opportunity to go home late. heh. & he bought 1 drumstick for me from KFC! thanks baby! We talk and talk and talk! haha. ok, around 10 plus nearing to 11, i have to go home already because mama and the rest was on their way home. & guess what? danial said that the last bus for 965 was at 11 AND that time was alrdy 11 plus? i was like wtf? I Asked him, how am i supposed to GO HOME?! Yesterday, he brought his bicycle and he said to me that he will CYCLE me home! I was like WHAT-THE-HELL? Yishun to woodlands? ARE YOU SERIOUSLY KIDDING ME DANIAL?! He kept saying that there's no 965 anymore~ After we went out from the lift, he said to me uhh, you sit infront of me and i cycle. I looked at him (dalam hati aku cakap, siak ahhhhhhhhh b?! you kidding me right?) HAHA. ok, after 1 minute, i sat down and my butt is already hurting me. I should be thankful to him instead of BANYAK COMPLAIN! HEHE. sorry baby!~ i da mati2 ingat that your gonna sent me home siaaaaaa! i da start fikir how to reach home like that sia? with my sitting position and with your energy level? i da berat sehhhhhhh b~ HEHE. thanks for the ride baby! LOLS. HOW I WISH YESTERDAY YOU GOT YOUR CAR OR MOTORBIKE LICENCE?! HEHEHEHE. i love you beybeh!ehhhh b, i really cannot imagine you go ns sehhhh! confirm sedih eh? heh. wokay, see you soon honey! MFM sooooooon TOOOOOO! *weeeee* sayang you many2! LOVE YOU TRUCKLOADS! BYE GEMOK!

i'm gonna drive you crazy!

2011-03-22T05:16:00.000-07:00

I think i've lost interest with updating my blog each and everyday~ haiyo... ok, lets update about this week. Starting from monday.

MONDAY.

As usual, sat at home doing nothing. My ass is getting bigger siaaaaa everyday -_- & on the day itself, abang kept calling me to question me some stuffs. Tak pernah in one day he called for almost 4 times? haha. When i was preparing to sleep at around 430pm, he suddenly ask "ilah, which blk are you at and what is your unit number?" I was like huh? why abang asked me that questions? I didn't know that he's gonna come here! HAHA! surprise visit huh abang? He came with his gf. lols. I wish i can bring danial home to meet mama? HAHA! dream on ilah. its too early ilah! BUT i really hope that day will come!(: Insya'allah!(: wokay enough. Well abang, his gf, me and mama talked~ so yeah, thanks for the visit abang! see you soooooooon k GEMOK! haha!

TUESDAY.

Met up with my irritating danial around his blk. BUT i asked him to fetch me near his bus stop! heh. ok, after that we went to have our brunch. We had half spring chicken. I wasn't that hungry soooooo, i ate only the drumstick and little bit of rice. After he finished the food, we spend a little bit of the time by playing my phone rollercoaster game! i'm too good at it la b, that's why i always loose! I wanted to give you chance since you play and died everytime! LOLS. I love you laaaaaa B! hehe! ok, after that we headed to his house and I get to WATCH CHARLIE ST.CLOUD! ok, i know its kinda too late to watch it, but who cares? hahahahaha! didn't get to watch the ending part because his daddy asked him to buy spring chicken and i decided to follow him. after we get back from buying the chicken, he wanted me to accompany him to play games with his xbox~ and so I DON't wanna play it. Its a shooting game -_- & I KNOW I'M NOT A SPORTING GIRLFRIEND~ haaaaaais. ok, that part i'm being bad. i know. sooo, at 420 i went off from his home to fetch irah! & thanks to mama that i waited irah for almost 1 hour! she thought she finished her cca at 5 but its at 530! haisssss

WEDNESDAY.

As for today, i woke up at exacly at 4 am. Because you wanna know why? It might sounded disgusting but i don't care. lols. I feel so wet because of my menses -_- well, every month i'll always have to sacrifice my sleep in the middle of the night. AHHHHHH. its ok~ girl power baby! OKAY. let's get back to the topic~Today i need to go school to try out my uniform and so, I woke up at 10 am when i felt the vibration of my phone. Its beee who called me. heh. NGANTOK SEH. REALLY! uhhh, after ironing my pants, bathe and set my bedroom i immediately salam mama and here i go...

After i went out from the lift, i ran all the way to the bus stop. Fuyoooooo. Super duper late to school! 10 plus already siaaa. Yesterday the person called saying that i'll have to go school by 10-12pm. And me, who's always LATE serve me right la huh? 2nd day of menses, you will have to run! PADAN MUKA ilah! ok, whatever! met danial at woodlands platform. Hmm, actually i don't wanna meet him but i wanna meet him. i don't wanna meet him BECAUSE i'm tired of fighting and arguing AND furthermore i REALLY can't control my PMS. I get irritated easily. But i wanna meet him because, i hate to go anywhere ALONE. I just need danial so much ~_~ even though early in the morning he said to me that his leg hurt so much and he cannot follow me~ so, i said ok. Knowing that he wouldn't be coming with me, i slowly dragged myself out from bed with a sad face ): When i first took my clothes from my cupboard and put it on iron board, danial called me and said, "b, can i follow you?" in my heart its like JUMPING AROUND! haha! I WAS SOOOOOOOOO FUCKING HAPPY SIA! heh. ok, SKIP that part.

After my everything, we went to redhill since my dumbass wanted to sent something at cmpb. waited 30 mins for him. Better than 2 hours right? HAHA. Both of us were having all kinds of cramps the whole day. Can i stop typing already? Da penat la

Ok, last THANKS BABY FOR THE SHAKER SHAKEY FRIES! I LOVE IT! I LOVE YOU! heh. that's all for today~

gdnites

2011-03-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

This picture touches my heart. They are actually queuing up for collecting waters. Instead of attacking the place without patience.

SUBHANALLAH

my condolence for peoples in Japan );

I don't know what will happen if that lady was me. If i was her, i'll be crying non-stop. I'll be searching my family's dead body. Its going to be hard for me to accept the fact that i'm living in this world without my family. I don't know how to move on? There's a lot more to say but i just can't express it here~I pray so that all of the survivors could live on well. Insya'Allah.

silent cry

2011-03-02T05:42:00.000-08:00

should have find another work after my attachment. why am i being stupid? why am i so stupid? i stayed at home & wasted ALOT of my life time doing nothing. i'm angry with myself. i hate being who i am. i hate nabilah nasser! people might laugh at me for being stupid. sorry mama ayah, for being such a failure daughter. i don't know what to do with my life. i wish i don't exist in this world. At least without me, there will be less burden in this family. i'm sorry.

my lovely pak pondah (((((;

2011-02-22T02:13:00.000-08:00

lols. he's my wonderful BOYFRIEND, FRIEND, BESTFRIEND & PARTNER IN CRIME. HAHAHAHAHAHA. All i wanna say is, I miss Danial Syazni Termizzi truckloads! aweeeeeeee~

Found these olddd pics. I'm loving it((((:

2011-02-21T09:26:00.000-08:00

(i don't know why, but i'm loving his face right here. reminds me when i first saw him on my first day of school. Somehow, his face changed)

Dream High~

2011-02-21T07:55:00.000-08:00

Currently, im obsessed with this korean drama called "dream high". I stared at the laptop for almost half of the day! I'll only pause or stop only when whoever wanted to use the laptop. In 3 days i can say hello to the 13th episode. lols. In this drama even if they have to start from the bottom again, they don't mind. They set a mindset. If they say they wanna win, they will really work for it & achieve it.

OK, boring.

memories stays there (;

2011-02-18T22:22:00.000-08:00

B, i'm loving this picture! This is the first time you asked me out as a friend. lols. i'm still shy with you siaaaaa in this picture. On that day, you bought for me PINK ipod cover! haha. & also, you belanje me "How to train your dragon" in 3D (and that was my first time to watch CARTOON movie in 3D) banyak eh "first time" with you? hahaha!

I LOVE YOU DANIAL!

whasssssup nigger?

2011-02-18T04:12:00.001-08:00

met up with danial, ken, aishuang,jet&hs. AHHH, i miss them truckloads! soon, all of us going to our own courses. ); sad thing huh? school will be opened in 2 months time~SOOOOO EXCITED! PASTRY BAKING BABY! hahaha! OHGOD! 2nd day of menses sucks! it hurts like hell! sheesh~

useless thoughts

2011-02-15T09:01:00.000-08:00

i hope with this it'll brighten up my day in future. I hope one day people will appreciate me (;

my love story will never end~

2011-02-13T07:43:00.000-08:00

Currently chatting with my danial (; well, i REALLY miss him a lot though ~_~ Today went to nenek house to ngaji and also we celebrated the February babies. The cake was chocolate sponge & it was marvelous! somehow i told my aunt about my p&b course. and she was extremely HAPPY FOR ME!!!!!!! (((((; i still remembered that on 26 Jan when the results are out, i told kakak about my SUCCESSFUL INTERVIEW SHE WAS LIKE OMG!!!! UR GONNA GO PASTRY&BAKING! OMG IM FUCKING HAPPY FOR YOUUUU! but when i told mama about it, she doesnt really feel happy ~_~ a little bit of disappointing though~ & when i told ayah about the news, he also disagree with my decision. double disappointing -_- i really felt so depressed after knowing that they disagree with it. Cried in my sleep. Cried on the phone with danial. Cried when i was messaging kakak about them. Cried in the toilet. Cried with musics. ahhhhhhh, so stressful. But with kakak and danial's motivation and support, i know that this is just the beginning and i have a lot more to prove to them that I CAN MAKE IT. Insya'allah, I WILL MAKE IT! I don't want them to think that im a useless daughter and i can't do anything in this world. I have a dream too mama & ayah.

Hopefully, i'll pass the test for p&b. Insya'allah(;

Kakak, i guess i'm the luckiest person to have a gerek sister LIKE YOU. Your always there for me. & i love you for that.

Danial Sayang , thanks for everything(; You know, ur my number 1? hahahaha. I LOVE YOU!

Not forgetting my leha!(; She's the one who always make me LAUGH like a mad PERSON in the public. OMG. that was embarrassing though. BUT nehhhh, who cares? As long we LOVE to laugh TOGETHER, we'll keep laughing like there's no tomorrow~weeeeee. I LOVE YOU FOR BEING MY LEHA!lols

be confident with no regrets

2011-02-12T05:23:00.001-08:00

I still remember the first day i met danial. It was at the computer lab and he was late for class. His first impression was impressive. I thought he was a Eurasian+a lil bit of indian blood. Of all places to sit, he sat near me! *melts* At that point of time, i really wanna know his name. And i guess the teacher in-charge called his name. AND i was like OMG HE'S A MALAY! ok, im sooooooo mentel but, im a lil bit shy too. lols. He's unlike others. He didn't say "Hi" to me or anything. He just entertained the rest of his classmates. soo yeah. Its the end of school hours for the day and half of the class walked together to clementi station. & that was when i know that danial don't really understand malay. I smiled and laughed to myself. when we reached the station, he took the same line as me since he's going to his mma. & so, in the train was his first conversation ever with me.* I was kinda nervous though* he asked me"tak beli baju uniform" HAHAHAHA. i was like weeeeeee, the handsome guy talked to me at last. hahahahahaha. that was only my first day of school.

He used to be my friend and my bestfriend. But now, im proud to say he's my love. He's now part of my life. He's my everything. He's my third ear, he's my punching bag, he's my life-Saviour. I thank him for everything. thank you sayang! I LOVE YOU SO VERY THE MUCH!

Tomorrow, gdluck for your soccer ok sayang? must win TAU! if you don't win, then i don't wanna sayang you xp. hehehehehehe joking! no matter you win or lose, im still proud of you! ok? remember that i'll always be in your heart! love you! muackz!

AWESOME DAY WITH MY "AAHHHH BEEEEEE"

2011-02-10T04:32:00.000-08:00

Today me and my danial went to yishun new park? we both had "home packed lunch" together(; he brought my fav fried rice and i brought his fav fried maggie. lols. & ALSO, he bought 2 yakult for both of us. so thoughtful eh xp. after we're full, we sat down and chit chat. after chit chat, took pictures, we play with the water! SPLISH, SPLASH! SOOOOO FUN! He's the one who started with the "wet stuff" lols. we went here and there to play with the water. HAHA. we took 1hr to enjoy the fun and then its time to dry ourself up aaaaaaaaaaaand we went to khatib's mac to have his early dinner. *psst* my bf tengah diet nieee. HAHAHA. he had mcspicy for that and me; sundae's chocolatee~ arnd 5, we went off that place and wait for 965 to go home. which is a sad thing laaaaaaaa~that will be the last meet for this week. hey, i had AWESOME DAY WITH YOU! thank you love.

I LOVE YOU

next tuesday i'll be getting my results test for P&B. Pleaseeee let me be fit to be in that course? i won't be paying $48 for nothing. I hope its worth paying. Insya'allah

2011-01-07T03:50:00.001-08:00

To work or not? will be having an interview on monday at night safari~ mama will be working too! she's going to work soon~ i told her that, i wanted to work TOO! but mama asked me to take care of irah ~_~ what a boring job! i also want to have my own money too! ): tak kan nak harap kan duit parents je ~_~ BLARGHHHH!

Hmm, i miss MY pak pondah xp!

my hair is really growing awfully

2010-12-31T06:11:00.000-08:00

Something about love~

My danial syazni termizzi will be turning 18 in 18 days from now. uh-ha, im still planning about his birthday surprise. Be surprise eh b? i hope the plan goes smoothly. insya'allah(=

I cannot be too excited neither you can be too excited for your bdae! its my first time planning for anyone's birthday. so be glad, ur the first one. weeee, hehe. thought of meeting you today, but ayah balik siang.. soooo, i dont know if tomorrow i'll be able to see you. i miss you taaaaau! i really wanna eat macdonald with yaaaa! i'll wait for that day! i wont eat macdonald with anyone else, cos i wanna eat with ya!

2010 is going to end soon~ there's good and bad terms that has happened in 2010. its the year that i met you. your the one that i always fought with. your the one who always stayed at my side when im alone. your the one who always there when i need someone. & because of you, i always wanted to get attention from you and so, i made alot of noise and laugh out loud;loudly just because i wanted you to see me. haha. i really thank you for everything. no matter good or bad, ur always there in my eyes.

dumbass says: b, do you love me?

dumbdumb says: of course i do!

dumbass says: how much?

dumbdumb says: VERY MUCH!!! I LOVE YOOOOU!

2010-12-24T22:47:00.000-08:00

Today, im home alone. Everything is ruined. Nothing makes me better. BLARGHHHHH

Baby, your the best i've ever had

2010-11-12T06:39:00.001-08:00

Tomorrow will be working morning shift while my sayang? He'll be working afternoon shift. haiz. its okay!! next week will be the last week we'll be having our attachment. and that day REALLY AWAITS! today, both of us started work at 9 and ended work at 6~ and after he ended work, he went straight to meet me at boat quay. And guess what?! da datang jauh2, he forgot to take his baju at clark quay. and the HILARIOUS part is he borrowed one of the staff bicycle and cycle from boat quay to clark quay.. kinda far though.. and he told me that the paddle something wrong and kept dropping off. lols. haha. atleast that bicycle saved YOUR time sayang! be THANKFUL!

Baby, thank you for being there for me! I just want you to stay by my side and be there for me! Because, i'll always be there for you! my sadness are your sadness too right sayang?

BABY?! Thanks for the prepaid! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT ALOT! thank you sayang! and THANK YOU FOR PINCHING ME AND LEFT A MARK THERE! heeeeee~ and baby, eat that famous amous wisely hor!lols. OKAY. my bed is calling for me now! SELAMAT MALAM SAYANG!!!!! SEE YA SOOOON! I LOVE YOU!!!!

2010-11-11T05:37:00.000-08:00

Today, finished work at 4? Even though today didn’t do much at work, i still feel the tiredness. & so, after work me and dumbass decided to met up with my kakak~ and dumbass belanje US Burger King! Wohoooooo!~ Haha. B, better than nothing hor? Should asked kakak to choose EHMMMM much more expensive ke? Hehe! Kidding! I LOVE YOU! b, thanks for the earring baby! Its wonderful! ((((= love it soooo much!

Hmm, yesterday me and MY DUMBASS had the same off day! & so, we went to where *i forgot the name* hehe. Uhh actually we only wanna watch megamind. But ended up we watch 2 movies in one day. Wow. Right after megamind, we got like 45 mins more to the other movie. And sooooo, i layan him go arcade and see him play game fight2? Haha. (shortcut) uhh, right after the last movie, we went to Thai Express to have our dinner. Im not sure what i ate. But, im sure i ate some sort of curry crab? Haha. ANYWAYS, THANKS FOR THE DINNER SAYANG! Its OK if you forgot that im allergic to seafoods. This time ur excused. Next time, IN YOUR DREAMS laaa hah? Muahahahhaha! I SAAAAAYANG YOU BANYAK2!! Better SAYANG ME MORE BANYAK THAN ME HOR?! *Hehe* ohhya! SOMEONE JUST BOUGHT CONTACT LENS! Action ahh tu eh b?

OHHHK people! Tomorrow gonna work 9 to 6! sooooo NOT looking forward to it!!! BECAUSE im working ALONE! WTF? But, im going work with my lovely! OHHYEAAAAAH! Ok... Danial? Is this long enough for you to read? I hope, yes? Im sooo penat ahhh. Don’t ask why am i sooo penat even though i tak buat pape. Its 10.15 now. Will be sleeping soon! I LOVE YOU DANIAL SYAZNI TERMIZZI(((((((= will be uploading the pics by tomorrow cos right now i can't stand with my BLOOOODY laptop! TOOO SLOWWW

2010-11-06T04:45:00.000-07:00

*(in these pictures, DANIAL SYAZNI TERMIZZI BIN BASER IS soooo degil by not smiling with his teeth on! lols)

Hey PEOPLE! IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I LAST UPDATED MY BLOG!! I guess raya post was the last one... hmm, so now i guess I’ll be telling you guys everything about what i did for the past few months. Currently now, im busy with my attachment at Singapore River Cruise which sucks to the core ALOT! Work for LONG HOURS and we got so pathetic for our pay! Cb! Arghhhh!! HEART PAIN AHHHHH! Enough about that.

The next thing i wanna tell you guys is that, I BOUGHT ROLLER BLADE with my HONEY! Wohoooooo! Rollerblade sia! Haha. Got special offer! Buy 1 get 1 free. Sooo, in total we gotta pay only $134 each. Ok lor... LIKE FINALLY WE BUY!!!! THANKS SAYANG FOR LAYAN-NING MY NONSENSE! HEHE. I know you LOVE me. Lols. And after that, MONEY BURN. And now, money is like water... haiyo.... neh, nvm. Its ok. As long i got my rollerblade and can roll together with my dumbass da OK. Right baby? Haha. And you DANIAL SYAZNI TERMIZZI, make sure you take good care of your sword! If i were to go ur house and check on ur sword and i see scratches, you die ah b! Get me?

& the next, next thing is that...... I FINALLY PIERCED MY EARS? I KNOW THIS SOUND KENTAL... BUT I REALLY CAN’T BELIEVE THAT I ACTUALLY PIERCED MY EARS AT THE AGE OF 17? I was kinda penakot laaa. Baby witnessed it. Btw, HE WAS THE ONE WHO ASKED ME TO PIERCED MY EARS! He was beside me and i held his hand tightly and 3 times orang tu nak shoot at my ears then tak jadi... Then sayang aku marah aku... takot kene marah lagi kan, so end up action jadi BERANI! Haha. Ni ah Nabilah. Step je jadi berani. B, happy tak i da tindek?

Hmm, MAYBE tomorrow will be meeting MAKCIK KESAYANGAN AKU SORANG TUHHHHH! Haha. Daaaaaa lame giler sia tak jums kau SALEHA! Hopefully besok jumpe ehh?

Okay, enough ah k? Haha. Ni da panjang sangat... b, i da update. I LOVE YOU! SEE YA TOMORROW! Yeay! GOING WORK WITH YOU! LETS NOT BE LATE AGAIN PLEASE? Haha. K dah, bye.

RAYA'10

2010-09-21T06:28:00.000-07:00

Last sunday was awesome! took several pictures with cousins! especially with IFFAH! ohhhgod!~she was SUPER irritating laaaaaaa. but overall, okay laa. thanks for uploading it shasha/haiqal! AHHHHHHH, stomach cramp. it hurts. i wonder how am i going to sleep later with kakak's kicking? im soo gonna shout like a mad person sia! be aware~ my PMS is coming! will be sleeping sooon. tummy, dont start ur nonsense ah. im tired. i hope you call me tonight. dont come home late hor. sorry, to sleep first.

i love you and i sayang you!

kiss on the forehead = i comfort you

2010-09-16T18:17:00.000-07:00

it has been a long time since i last updated my blog. i've been super duper LAZY to update. yes, seriously. & today is the 7th day of raya!which is already the 1 week of raya. 2 days ago was my birthday and I celebrated my birthday with my dumbass!~ HE BOUGHT STRAWBERRY CAKE, AND A SWEET LITTLE CUTE "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" BEAR. thank YOU very much! & btw, the SURPRISE was AWESOME! i didnt know that we're going to the zoo since he said its a surprise. We went there by cab and when the driver turned to mandai rd, i knew that we're going to the ZOO! i love it honey! i love my wonderful day at the zoo with love(((((= thanks for everything!

thanks for the birthday wish people: Saleha*, dumbass, kakak, mama, ayah, irah, ai shuang, ken, corrine, diyanah, abby, shams, hakkim, daniel, abang fir.

today, my honey treated me to watch "devil". thanks dumbass!(= but, the movie was SUPER slow! the suspension only makes us shocked and scared~ ahhhh, i lost my duit raya~*SIGH* i dont have any money left for myself now..its okay to whoever took it~

& today, went to meet saleha less than 20 mins~ haiz. & now, mak dier pulak buat hal. kesian kau eh babe. haiz sedih ke pe.............

Until the end of time

2010-08-25T08:01:00.000-07:00

ohhhh tak nak update kan i nye blogg ehhhhhhh. takpe! I ingat! you wait ah, wait! haha. OKAY! blog has been dead since dunno when? semakin hari, semakin malas aku nak blog. There's nothing interesting to share about~ohhya! today, i went to terawih with irah. supposed to go with haziq too, but he dun wanna go. so yeah, its only the 2 of us. OHBOY! im sooooo hungry! didn't eat anything the whole day. I'm so gonna eat banyak2 for sahur later! chawww

I MISS YOU )))))))=

2010-08-14T06:53:00.001-07:00

Today is the fifth day of puasa yet i've not gone to any of the sembahyang terawih! tomorrow will be having madrasah and will be going alone since ayah going to be back from marsling by tomorrow morning. I DON'T care, you must teman me all the way from simei to bedok through the phone~ hehe. i love you la giler! haha. I must wait for 23 august then can see you~ hehe. by then we can always go school together and you can always sent me back home! im gonna miss the east peoples! esp this makcik saleha! haha.

FORMAL WEAR~

2010-08-12T07:55:00.000-07:00

1st day of Fasting

2010-08-10T19:00:00.000-07:00

Today is the first day of puasa!~ Fuyoooooo! yesterday i slept at 1 plus and woke up 430 till now my eyes are widely OPEN! kinda sleepy though~ but no worries! cos my dumbass is here sitting beside me! yeay! can bully him! hehehehe. tomorrow, the whole class gonna wear formal clothes for our PIE. So, means me with make-ups on? HEELS on all the way?! ohhhgod! trust me, i'm gonna complain and complain non-stop! BE PREPARED! yeay!he's gonna fetch me from simei tomorrow! i love him! wohooooo!~

Rnt i don't get a single shit. i know im listening to her explanation but my mind is else where~NABILAH?! haiyooooo~YESTERDAY, saleha saw abg fir and chat with him! SOOOO not fair you know! you know how badly do i miss this abang fir?! saleha nih, kasi aku jealous je... sedih tauuuuu member ))))=

you can find your way

2010-08-08T09:22:00.002-07:00

OLD TIMES!~

today, went to nenek house for ngaji~ ohhhya! HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE~ohhya, happy 17th birthday firdaus

i love my boyfriend. i miss my boyfriend. ohmy Danial Syazni Termizzi Bin Baser, it has been 3 days since i last saw you! Do you know whenever i miss you, i will look at your picture and smile widely like a mad person? Since thats the only thing that I can afford to make myself happy and satisfied. SINCE there's no SAMSUNG phone which every time i'll read ALL of your messages from inbox to drafts to sent items and lastly to YOUR FOLDERs!haha. i'll never get sick/tired reading your messages all the time. But now, I really miss reading those messages! How I wish i could retrieve those messages somewhere?

*SIGH*

tuesday awaits!

2010-08-07T06:19:00.001-07:00

Yesterday met up with my sally with danial+hong soon~ TALKed, LAUGHed LIKE HELL , GO CRAZY as always. standard ah kite orang! eh danial! semalam i suroh u trick saleha like how u ALWAYS trick me, power sia. HAHA! "eh, ABU!" haha. eh, u name banyak2 asal seh abu? haha. sebaik si saleha tak sembuh air tu kat aku! & saleha, "eh, gi mane?" kekek seh kau. nak fake pun tak tau!

Tomorrow awaits! BECAUSE we gonna get our HOME KEY! YEAAAAAY! FINAALY! But somehow, im gonna miss all these people here! sheeeesh. biler ni abang fir nak jumpe ilah and kakak?! nanti da tinggal at marsling lagi susah giler nak jumpe))))= please meet up soon? PLEASE?

I wanna work, so that i can buy everything nice for everyone!

be strong

2010-08-03T07:09:00.001-07:00

Have been quite lazy to update this blogggg. THIS MONTH will be the final month that we'll be staying at simei! Wohoooooo! but in other words, im saaaaaad toooo! won't be seeing saleha that often anymore~ *SIGH* BUT, will be asking her to sleep over at my house after everything has settled. hmm, The HOLY MONTH is coming in few days time~ isn't it a little too fast? I can't believe that now, its already August! I MISS MY ABANG FIR BAAADLY! Ilah ade banyak story telling ni nak bilang abang fir! )= Biler nak sahur at macdonald lagi abang fir?! haha. PLEASE jumpe asap? and you OWE me big story!haha.

DANIAL SYAZNI TERMIZZI, PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOUR HEALTH?! You dun want me to be sad right? better listen to me, sayang yourself more than you sayang me okay! When you're with me, i'll take care of you AND also, i rule everything! hahahaha. that's the evil part~TOOO BAAAAD! YOU ASKED FOR IT! haha. I don't want you to end up in the hospital AGAIN. Remember, 7 years isn't a short journey! Love youuuu very much lovely dumbass!

SALEHA NURAIN, i want you to be happy! I know its hard, but try to ok? You know, you can always take out your phone and dial my number or punch messages to me? i'm your selenger bestfriend remember?haha. PFFFT! FRIDAY we'll meet up okay?! SAYANG KAU!

Life's Full of Adventures n I'm Sharing it with you

2010-07-29T09:11:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU TOO NABILAH NASSER!!!

Well Today Tried on Formal Thingys, Blazers are so not ME,

Eventhough they say i look good in it.

Lessons we're great though, I almost lost my thumbdrive (BAIK AH DAN!!) YIKES!!!

Baby please remind me next time to take it out from the CPU.

Heen Thanks for the title for the song!!!

No broasters for breakfast today but had MAC INSTEAD early in the morning while

for these (POWER RANGER HONG SOON), EH C2 better come earlier next time!

Sorry Eh B, I didn't meant to, Didn't want to

BABY I LIKE IT!!!

Posted by Danial

i love yoooooou danial!

2010-07-29T07:19:00.001-07:00

Im gonna buy my formal things tomorrow! Yahoooooo! ~ i love kakak so very much! Hmm, she will be busy with me tomorrow since aiyoub’s birthday is on 2^nd august. Blarghhhhhh! So today, after school me, danial,ken,jet,alif and hong soon went to G2000 for our formal attire. It took us 1 hr plus just to decide what colour is the best and stuffs. I took this selenger bacin picture since I WANTED HIM TO BE ON THE PICTURE~ punye susah nak suruh dier senyum betol2! I’m a bad photographer so shussssh!

Selenger pun, boyfriend aku jugak. Aku cinta dier banyak2!

Aku pun sayang/cinta si saleha sorang tuh!

I LOVE DANIAL SYAZNI TERMIZZI BIN BASER N SITI SALEHA NURAIN!

2010-07-21T23:25:00.000-07:00

Well today is Thursday!
Currently temperature should be about23 degrees, Tomorrow will be seeing A BLOOD PLEDGE,Like finally from last week dah plan nak tengok on monday abeh monday takde timing sheesshh~

Well RnT i'm still kinda lost. PNR,SSR,OSI all these= HEADACHE! I wish gpa was that easy to get, At least i can cope with OIT and PIE.

ER!
END OF TRANSACTION!

2010-07-21T06:21:00.000-07:00

Today, was blarghhhh~ vomited thrice! The 3^rd time i vomited all the chicken rice out since i ate that for lunch~ I WANNA EAT ICE CREAM! I WANNA WATCH A BLOOD PLEDGE BADDDDLY! =(((( im still waiting for abang fir~ abang! Cepat laaaaa baik! Daaa lame GILER tau tak jumpe! why am i always having bad headaches?! Baby nyer bdae nak dekat! Can i not go school on that particular day? I wanna celebrate her big day in school. Its going to be her first celebration in school though~ confirm kecoh? Haha. I love you baby!

2010-07-16T05:38:00.000-07:00

Met up with saleha after school with dumbass. Had a splendid time with both of them! Ate macdonald for lunch. Today, thought of drinking coke since im not fasting BUT i’m having menses and the worst part is tomorrow will be going to be the shittiest day ever!

2010-07-14T19:34:00.000-07:00

Currently Im in school. Now its LPD lesson. Mr Issac he’s lesson is super bored but he’s a very innoncent teacher. Haha. Today, is the 4th day of fasting with dumbass~ School have been sooooo tiring! HELL YES! But the shiok thing is that, I can always look forward to go to school because of someone~muahahahahha. I love you sucker! Ayah will be fetching me every Tuesday to Thursday since I’ll be finishing school at 6. Fuyooooo! Chua Chu Kang to simei! What a JOURNEY! Everyday have to wake up at 430 all the way till night. By 9pm, I’m gonna surrender myself to bed. TODAY IS THE RELEASE OF A BLOOD PLEDGE! HMPH! I WANNA WATCH!

Where am I?

2010-07-11T00:02:00.000-07:00

I’m bored to death. Blog has been dead since last week and that sucks a lot. Today, i’ve decided to stay at home instead of following my family out. Today’s menu is Curry Chicken and the best part is the person who cooked that dish was my mama! So-di-li-cious~ wokay people! Let me list all the things that I wanted and places that I would wish to go to.

~Things that I wanted the MOST!

1. Roller Blade**

2. PINK Nike Shoe

3. PUMA bag! )=

4. Esprit Stuffs (please?)

5. A change of spectacles

~Places that I wanted to go!

1. Ice Skating!!!

2. ZOO

3. Universal Studios

4. BEACH! (SUNSET)

So that’s basically WHAT I want and WHERE DO I WANT TO GO. I wish I can work now, but I know I can’t juggle school with work. So, all I gotta do now is to wait for the right time to come! Wohoooooooo~ Next Month marsling! I can’t wait to get out from here~ PEOPLE! I miss my dearest Saleha Ain SOOOOOOOO much! Words just can’t express it but, I shall HUG her tightly and say “aku rindu kau!” hahaha. Serious shit, no doubt I missed her! I’ve got a lot of things to tell you so, please MEET me SOOOOON?! This time, no cancellation ahhh! I love you SITI SALEHA NURAIN!

Tomorrow will be having school and I’m going to pay back my fast. Dumbass will be fasting too! Sebaik ade member ehhh~ aku sayang kau banyak2! You are my laughing machine, my friend, my most beloved boyfriend, my listening ear, my punching bag, my shadow, and my smile. So don’t go far and please stay by my side? I don’t want you to wear your fake smile anymore because I know, it hurts. So please, don’t keep things from me since I’m so selenger and can’t read you.

Love you

2010-07-02T22:53:00.000-07:00

This was yesterday.

Be calm in your heart

2010-06-29T05:16:00.000-07:00

I miss this moment! Really! Saaaad to say, i miss my secondary school life~muahahahaha. Today, i spend my whole afternoon with my “makcik”. Had ALOT of fun with her! We shared all kinds of stories! From Singapore to kampong. Wth? Hahahaha. I had cheese fries as my lunch and I don’t think i’ll be having dinner since today menu is egg curry -_- no link seh egg curry! Haha. Will wait for tomorrow breakfast then~ & also, will be going out with my girls tomorrow! Wohoooooooo!

*Aku rindu kau seh dumbass! Thursday awaits gemok! Muahahaha. I love you (=

2010-06-29T05:15:00.001-07:00

2010-06-28T05:38:00.001-07:00

2010-06-22T21:33:00.000-07:00

i am scared of my results tomorrow!

guess what?

2010-06-21T04:41:00.000-07:00

To my dearest girlfriend; SITI SALEHA NUR AIN! HAPPY SWEET 17^thBIRTHDAY! Like finally huh? Haha! May all your wishes come true and may you succeed in life k baby! AND be happy always! Hoped you enjoy your special day! LOVE YOU!

Today, the whole day I watched Boys Over Flower. Its the 6^th time i watched that drama! Shiok,shiok! Hahaha. Truthfully, I’m so restless of what can I do the whole day at home! *sigh* Ate egg curry (which was my first time eating that dish) TONIGHT, IFFAH’S GONNA ROCK MY NIGHT! I miss dumbass! He’s coming back tomorrow! yeaY! (i’ll be waiting)

will i be the one you choose?

2010-06-18T06:33:00.000-07:00

Eh pantat! Go Phuket tomorrow, jangan enjoy TOO much! May you go and come back safely~ 3 days without contacting you. hmm. Ok la tuh, 3 days je? I can still survive. MUAHAHAHA! I enjoyed my day with you gemok! See ya soon (don’t know when?) grounded is still ongoing, yet i can still went home late huh? Sheeesh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NENEK!

2010-06-17T06:03:00.001-07:00

So today, we celebrated nenek’s birthday. Chu nor bought a cake and sang a birthday song! The cake was delicious man! Chocolate sponge! I thought, it would be a black forest cake which will have blueberry’s everywhere in the cake. So yeah, at 730 ayah fetch us and walaaaaah, we’re home~ tomorrow will be having picnic woiii! Hopefully it will not rain!

TOODLES~

AKU SAYANG GILER KAT NI POMPS!

2010-06-17T05:31:00.000-07:00

Eh Saleha Ain! Asal kau feeling nah ni? Haha. Kau tau kan aku LOVE KAU, SAYANG kau sampai biler2?! Kau nihhh! Sedih tau aku biler kau cakap aku tak LOVE KAU! Alamak! Kau tau pe? Kiter orang tak jumpe dalam 1 week je daah rindu giler babs dgn each other! Kalah rindu matair seh! Haha! Aku sayang/love kau sampai biler2! Aku kan tak boleh hidup tanpa kau! Haha! Chey2! I LOVE YOU babe! MANY2!

there's no guarantee that life would be easy.

2010-06-16T05:19:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, we went to WILD WILD WET. We reached at 11 and went home at 7. Like wow? 8 hours of SHIOK moments! Haha. Iffah was SUPER DUPER kecoh! And ziddan wore a bee swim suit. Soo cute! Too bad our camera is still with aiyoub! Thanks to kakak ahhh! And thanks to haiqal’s iphone for those pictures! Please upload it ASAP?! And know, i’m having flu, nose blocked and fever! So shiok hah? Mama, thanks for the roti telor! I love you!

And dumbass, i love you too!

everybody needs an inspiration

2010-06-14T06:57:00.000-07:00

So today spend my times with my SAYANG! Haha. Aku rindu dier giler babs. And also, we let EVERYTHING out to each other. Even the little secrets we tried to keep deep down inside and don’t want to let others know, end up story telling jugak eh! muahahaha. 2 more months nanti da susah nak jumpe seh! Marsling to pasir ris? ))))))= sedih sehhhh! Nanti susah nak bilang story telling face to face again! But its okay! Aku sanggup go pasir ris kalau aku da tinggal marsling! Haiyo! I’ve been rubbing and scratching my both whole hand. And now, its spreading throughout my leg, body and my face! What’s happening man?! ))))))= tomorrow will be going to wild wild wet instead of bbq with classmates. MAMA doesn’t allow me to go! I wanted to enjoy with my friends ma! But since you’ve said no, means i gotta go with the flow~ SORRY GUYS!

No lovey dovey for me~
I love my dumbass!

this was friday pictures

2010-06-13T05:35:00.000-07:00

I love you now and will even love you more in the future. 7 years down the road is a long journey. Yeah, i know. But nothing is impossible if we don’t try.

run away

2010-06-09T05:43:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, i wonder how it feels like being a lonely child. Yeah, I know i don’t need any of unwanted stuffs. I am not being a childish here, but.... only Allah knows)= time changes everything. I miss those times; really. All i gotta do now is to get great grades for my modules; hopefully ah. I just realised that even though you guys didn’t really gave me the moral support, i know deep down your heart you wanted me to achieve in life.

*abang fir, we hope to see you everyday back again like the old times!

Craving for ice cream

enhance the future

2010-06-08T03:47:00.000-07:00

I can’t sleep the whole night and those “crazy or love” messages and those lovely pictures cheered me up. I wanted to wake kakak up, but she was having a bad fever so i dun wanna disturb her. Love is as hard as a rock. I wish time could fast forward. If i were to leave you just because of what you said/did, it wouldn’t make any sense at all. I have to think out of the box as you said. No one’s perfect. I’m not perfect too. I have my own past too. Everyone has it. You said, accept for who you are. If i accept for who you are, would you accept me for whom I am? The whole day, I’ve got nothing to do other than watching TV and sleep the whole afternoon. I placed my phone right at the corner of my dressing table. I hate my phone now. Please end this now? And please talk to me again? I forgave your past and let’s not overlook upon this matter anymore? I love you for who you are and i hope you do the same thing too! I love my dumbass!

Had tremendously fun today

2010-06-07T05:33:00.000-07:00

who says love is the easiest thing to deal with?

2010-06-04T08:11:00.001-07:00

Grounded sucks.
Yeay! Exams are finally over! But... I don’t wish to see the results. I know I did badly for every test. Except for ITI? Hmm, DON’T KNOW LAAAH EH. so, lets talk about today. Woke up at 645 and bathe and went out to science centre early in the morning just to practice for my dnt award tmr. I got an encouragement award? Pathetic huh? Haha. Who cares? Will get cheque tmr wohoooo!~ but, i’ll not be getting much of money since it is just an encouragement award. And, met up with sally since she would accompany me to there with mr chia~ so, during lunch mr chia TREAT us SWENSEN! Wohooooo!~ mr chia, YOU ROCK! Haha. Because this “somebody” wants to see that “someone” who works there. PFFT. Hmm. Monday will be going Pulau Ubin with mates! Being grounded makes me more stubborn though.
I really2 wanna THANK kakak ALOT! Thanks for the billabong shirt! Aku sayang kau! Haha! Kalau bukan kau, sape lagi aku nak manja2 eh? and, kakak bought perfumes too~ haha. Sorry ahh, kalau aku kasi kau bankrupt! Hehe. Nanti aku da keje, aku belanje kau k? I MISS ABANG FIRDAUS A LOTS! IT HAS BEEN A FEW MONTHS SINCE I SAW AND MET UP WITH ABANG)))=
Loving you alone is the greatest thing ever.

rock that body

2010-05-27T06:33:00.000-07:00

I’m so gonna work after exams! Not sure what/where can I work. I wanna go Universal Studio! I wanna buy ipod nano! I wanna buy everything nice with my hard earned money again! I miss going to the atm machine to withdraw money! Exams will be in 3 days time! I’ve yet to GO REALLY mad to study. Why am I not taking this exam seriously? I’m going to meet jet, hakeem and alif later on~ I really2 need alif help in DTG and EFC! I’M SOOOO HUNGRY!

CHANGI NAVY BASE WITH CRAZY MATES!

2010-05-22T19:28:00.000-07:00

love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind

2010-05-14T06:30:00.000-07:00

Hey peoples! Today i had my ITI re-test paper! I’ve got nothing to say but ALHAMDULILLAH; at least i didn’t leave any questions blank except for 1 particular question ah. That one ah, i felt like slapping myself! I knew the answer but, i JUST can’t recall the word. What a waste man! Hmm. So today after school, we (myself, ai shuang, ken, Corinne, jet, danial, alif, hong soon and Garrick) went to IMM to shopping some stuffs for the elderly visit. I’m not their team members but HEHE, you know! So around 1 plus, all of us went to the separated ways. And so after I reached home, i met up with sally since she wants to eat 18 chefs. I had secrets with saleha about what happened at the mrt station and otw to T1. I enjoyed my day today~

I HATE THE QUALITY OF THIS CAMERA EVEN THOUGH ITS 8 MEGAPIXEL!

| TOODLES |

forever united

2010-05-12T06:23:00.000-07:00

HEY peoples! Wanna know something?! Tomorrow i’ll be having napha test! DAMN IT yeah! Furthermore, kakak brought my jogging shoe to work and left it there! aku nak cakap thanks je pat kau KAK! So, tomorrow will be running with my school shoe huh? EXAM will be in 2 weeks time i guess? Have not started anything yet! GREAT! I dunno how to start and where to start! Will be having ITI re-test on FRIDAY! Ohhyeah; o0o0o0. It’s raining so heavily right now! Shiok!~

To sally:

Eh pomps! Daaah la tuh. Kau pergi belajar btol2 for tomorrow test! Concentrate well okay! You know I’ll be always there for you? nanti aku da dapat rumah, boleh laa lari rumah aku eh? Hehehe! Aku sayang kau giler babs k.

ABANG FIR NIH! CAKAP NAK JUMPE ILAHHH??!

i'm thinking of it

2010-05-05T05:27:00.001-07:00

What IF I can’t make it to higher nitec? That question is going through in my mind. STUDY AND LOCKED EVERYTHING in my mind. Up till now, I’m still the slowest among all of them. No matter what I do, it doesn’t seem right.

aku da tak tau ape nak cakap. Yelaah semue aku buat salah. Nanti kau cakap ni la, tu laah. Kau ingat aku ape? Aku tau ah, kau pun ade perasaan. Aku pun ade. Not that aku cakap kau tak boleh fikir kan feelings kau sorang aje. Kalau aku takde perasaan eh, aku tak kesah. But, kau cakap macam takde pape je? After all this happened, you said we’re not really working out. Wth. You always have things on mind whenever I kept silence. Takpe laah, aku da biase nangis sorang. Self-depression;

just let it flow

2010-05-01T18:56:00.000-07:00

I love my FRIDAY AND SATURDAY~ but as for Friday, its kinda hard to say it here. HAHA! FOR my SATURDAY, went out with SALLY! After so long, we didn’t really spare time for each other, so yeah yesterday was great even though we just went around vivo city only. Sally was hilarious! Hahahahaha! Only me and danial knows about it though... OHH YA, yesterday we waited for danial till 6.15 and met up with him at the vivo rooftop. Sally wanted to go Keppel Bay, BUT we didn’t know which way to go since its DARK and scary so we went back to harbour front and ate KFC! Muahahahaha. Thanks for treating us danial! At KFC, all we do is LAUGH and EAT! Haha. If I were to flash the time back, I would be laughing like hell!

**** eh saleha, amik kau gambar!

what about tomorrow?

2010-04-24T23:06:00.000-07:00

PEOPLES! Blog has been dead since last week? I’ve been so lazy to keep it updated. SCHOOL, has been such a bore~ didn’t even have the time to meet sally, bai and some other friends. I missed YOU guys SO MUCH! )))))= I’ve been so HAPPY lately! You people should know why... NEXT MONTH awaits! Haha. EH SALEHA! AKU RINDU KAU GILER BABS TAU. MUST MEET UP SOON KAY!

We may not know what will happen next.|

had nothing to look forward

2010-04-18T21:21:00.000-07:00

"better never to have met you in my dreams than to wake and reach for hands that are not there"

don't treat me like a MIND READER!

2010-04-16T19:46:00.000-07:00

I had a sleepless night yesterday. I can’t sleep. My body was hot all over and the second thing i knew was, I’m going to be sick. And now, having menses doesn’t help at all. i’m so weak!

one after one

2010-04-10T06:20:00.000-07:00

How’s my day today? Well, firstly went out with mama, haziq and irah to afghan. While mama sent irah to the madrasah, me and haziq waited at the macdonald and do our own things such as; he played his psp while i surf the net at the laptop. While later we met mama and accompany her to eat nasi briyani. After done with her lunch, we went to check my eyesight. I am a short sighted on the right and long sighted on the left. I dunno how’s that possible. Haha. Tomorrow will be having madrasah~ and also, tomorrow is MAMA birthday & we gonna celebrate it tomorrow since today is Atok birthday, tomorrow will be Mama’s birthday and the following day will be Irah’s birthday. Wokay gtg now!

**HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATOK!~may you stay Strong and Healthy ok atok?! You’re a rock granddad! Love you!

**HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHURAH SAYANG!~may your whatever wish come true alright? Good luck in life! Love you!

headache

2010-04-07T05:29:00.000-07:00

Today, met up with abang fir. Supposed to met up at 10 am firstly, i woke up late and i have to wait for someone to get out from the toilet to bath. Soo, at 1020, I’m ready to get out from the house. Eventually, abang fir msged me and said” ilah, meet you at 1, k?” and I said, wokay~ so while waited till 1, I went to the library and do DTG project... so at 1 pm, abang fir waited for me in the library and saw my new hair and he’s reaction was like “ilah, why cut ur hair?” HAHA. I have nothing to say.... so yeah, had our lunch at Pastamania AFTER so long to decide where to eat. && I Saw SHAM and her friends.. haha. AND after lunch, abang fir asked if I wanna watch KLdrift2~syamsul yusof is SO HOT! Muahahahaha. I enjoyed my afternoon! THANKS ABANG!

Hilarious then Heartbreaking

2010-04-05T05:22:00.000-07:00

I stayed at home the whole day! Thanks eh sal! Hmm. So as you can see, the picture above is about the PASTA LOVERS! I love the guy! He’s hot! And I super love his voice! OMG! I miss watching this drama~ and btw, my ucu has joined my club! Hahaha! She gets so hyper whenever I mentioned about Korean stuffs! Hoho! Daah ade gang ahh! Yeay!

** I loved being reminded that existence itself is all about the tangling of souls |

love confession?

2010-04-03T04:57:00.000-07:00

I kinda miss my long hair!)= hmm. I’m damn bored since i’ve decided to stay at home instead of following my parents and siblings to Orang Kahwin. I wanted to teman sally after i’ve decided not to follow them....unfortunately, ayah asked me to stay at home and not to go anywhere. Sad case huh? And since just now, I’m doing DTG non-stop till mabok already. Haiyo! It’s raining again! Such a chilling weather! Too shiok to sleep but too bad too sad, i’m not sleepy yet. I’m hungry BUT there’s nothing to eat. I shall call the macdonald delivery! Haha. There is madrasah tomorrow! And ayah’s gonna work tmr! How am I supposed to go there from simei to bedok? If I were to go there by train, what bus shall I take after that? Confirm have to wake up early in the morning to decide what and where can I take.......

willy wonka~

2010-04-01T03:23:00.000-07:00

today, went to CS with kakak, sally, sha-sha & haiqal. and guess what? i've cut my hair SHORT. hmm, what to do? haiyo. & now, i'm at sally's underneath blk with qiqi and sally. while waiting for SOMEONE........ EHHH, WHEN ARE WE GOING TO DO OUR DTG? HAIYO! the 2nd week of our school holiday is going to end soooooon! eh stress ke pe? shall go to the library early in the morning to complete some of those DTG stuffs.

love lunacy

2010-03-26T09:28:00.000-07:00

hmm, today kakak and myself went out for swim at sengkang pool. When we reached there it was raining SUPER DUPER heavily. And no one was allowed to swim at the outdoor. So everyone transferred themselves to the indoor pool. Few minutes later the sun came back and we enjoyed the sun. End up my face turned a little bit darker. HAHAHAHA. Afterwards, we had our so called dinner at compass point. I’m so addicted to the seafood fried rice! It’s SO-DA-LI-CIOUS! Haha. So, after dinner we walked around and headed “home”.

enjoy people!

2010-03-25T07:47:00.000-07:00

Today, I felt so relieved that finally i’m out from the house. For the whole day i’m at Changi Airport wondered around with sally; then we decided to see mirul at mac cafe since he’s working there. And from there, we saw RAB! Haha. and few hrs later we met up with shurah and sham at the same spot. So yeah after that, we went to the basement and lepak there. Cam whore, like hell. Haha. Okay then, at 9 plus sally’s “D” sent us home. Thanks yeah?

And btw, There’s no skytrain at Tanah Merah Interchange mr!~

listen to me again?

2010-03-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

as for today, i had enjoyed myself under the wonderful rain(= thank you for raining! and today, i had someone to LOL with; thanks to farhana my 18 year old makcik! haha. guess what? i haven't even get started anything new on my DTG project. yeah i wasted my time by watching korean drama and it can't be helped. haha. i'll start soon ok? tmr will be meeting my saaaayang. i last met/saw her was when we watched my name is khan;i guess? will be meeting her tmr!

Saranghae-yo

people just don't know how to appreciate

2010-03-22T23:37:00.000-07:00

these 2 days, have been watching korean drama through online all day long! there's nothing else i can do at home. i wanna go out, but my legs are too heavy to step out of the house. yeah, aku kan PEMALAS? haiz. today have to stay up late wait for kakak! i'm sleepy! SALEHA!~ will meet up soon kay sayang! aku RINDU kau giler babs!

restless;

2010-03-16T05:33:00.000-07:00

Supposed to meet this lady here today at TAMPINES, unfortunately she had something on. nvm sayang, BUT school holiday ITS A MUST to MEET me ah! so today, had DTG paper. confirm gone case. i passed for my EFC & CSR. i really had no idea of how well or how bad i did for my EFC? as for CSR, i scored 65. better than 8 right?

saturday AGAIN? )=

2010-03-12T05:48:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow, early in the morning, i'm GOING to be a secondary school girl once again. going to MOE to have an interview for my dnt stuffs. its only 9:51pm and my eyes can't take it any longer. KAKAK where are you? ur father daaah memekak ahhhh! can i train to tampines and take 291 from interchange instead of bus all the way to afghan and walk all the way?i'm soooo sleeeppy!tmr, have to take breakfast! if not, my brain won't work for the interview! goood luck to ME! (=

too tired to talk

2010-03-11T02:52:00.000-08:00

Four minutes to 9 yet i feel so TIRED. ABANG FIR, cepat laa! haha.

wipe away your tears my dear(=

2010-03-09T04:32:00.000-08:00

guess what? i did badly for my EFC role play. yeaaas, i sucked whenever it comes to role play. but mostly, i sucked at everything. today, in school we did nothing much;except for role play,ITI test and P.E. tmr, will be going back to secondary school to meet mr chia for dnt stuffs. PFFT.

i'm nothing but hopeless right?

2010-03-08T05:41:00.000-08:00

currently, i'm practicing my Effective communication role play for tmr morning. there's plenty of things to be done within this week and next week! SOMEONE HELP PLEASE? )))= whenever i'm at "home" i felt so different. it feels like ARRRGGGH! SALEHAAA! MANE KAU??! gi BEACH joms?! ABANG FIR! ILAH NAK ICE-CREAM))=!

lost in words

2010-03-06T20:31:00.000-08:00

woke up at 7.15 and went to madrasah. was late for 30 mins. PFFFT! on 13 march, they'll be having camp.thought of not joining nor participating for the camp eventually,ustaza insist me to go. somehow she made me realised something. AND on the same day, i'll be going to the MOE for the DnT stuffs. Today, maybe will be having ngaji in the late afternoon? weekends are too long for me! please fast foward it? ARGGGGH!

Saturday, the final day;

2010-03-05T08:52:00.004-08:00

time checked, its SATURDAY;12:57 am. i got a lot of things TO SAY! but i can't possibly say it all here? today is the day that we gonna be separated with our DEAREST abg fir )= no one's going to disturb,irritates,cook maggie,switch off the laptop,accompany me throughout the night&call me pathetic names. 8 months was a little too fast.))))= If only i had the guts to run away from all these troubles, i would really RUN! i'm too tired to face those people. seriously. i always get distracted whenever i'm feeling down. People always say that " don't you ever get distracted by any of your problems while you are still schooling" yeeeaaasss; they can easily said that but somehow its not as easy as you people may think. you can only say it but if you people were to be in my shoe, i dont think you'll be able to cope the situation;

btw, abg fir do keep in touch and we'll always love you(=